As a senior in your fourth fall semester, you would think you'd have it all figured out. Then you realize, you have NOTHING figured out.
Yes, it is a very scary place to be in to not know where I am heading and what this semester will bring. Yes, it is hard at times to push through. Yes, there were MANY times I wanted to give up. BUT I had people to always remind me to "KEEP GOING, YOU CAN DO THIS."
The whole phrase in itself was hard to grasp many times. I would question myself all the time if I have the ability to keep going. I asked myself: Can I really do this? Now here I am, so close to the finish line and not realizing I kept going. The questions I had for myself were a matter of doubting what I can do and doubting what God has challenged/blessed me with.
Even with the challenge of the idea that I can do it, I was surrounded with encouraging people. I may not always have realized this, but those words helped lift up my spirits, even just for a little bit. Just a little bit goes such a long way. It was challenging, but it helped me realize that I have cheerleaders behind me who really want me to succeed. That in itself is motivating.
I am at a point where everything is about pushing through the END of the semester. It is not easy to be in a place where everything needs to be done, but still done well. I would question "Why does it need to be done well?" when I literally just want it to be done. As I am approaching the end, I HAVE to remind myself that it is about finishing strong. We do not want to finish the end on our faces, but rather be in a position of really ending well. This semester might feel like a marathon, but I feel and see the finish line right in front of me. I will cross that finish line with gladness and standing up. (NOT on my face!)